"Above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you, because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it."

Roald Dahl

"There’a a thin line between crazy people and the rest of us. I mean, we all have voices in our heads. Our parents are in there, our doubts, our fears, our desires. And just like crazy people we all struggle to know which voice to listen to."

Dead Like Me

gimme. portugal.

fall mix.

do you remember - jack johnson

let's go - cartel

bonfire- third eye blind

sun comes up - john legend

speak slow - tegan and sara

sink into me - taking back sunday

there's hope - india.arie

prepare to be digitally manipulated - four year strong

like i love you - justin timberlake

can't stop - red hot chili peppers

come together - the beatles

the good life - valencia

king of wishful thinking - new found glory

island - the starting line

santeria - sublime

burn one down - ben harper

kids - mgmt

i'm a slave for you - britney spears

no woman, no cry - the fugees

much better - jonas brothers

random, but all these songs make me smile.

she & him

"People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone."

Audrey Hepbur

mm. excited!

i love this molly!

Natural Highs

1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.

4. No lines at the supermarket.

5. A special glance.

6. Getting mail.

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.

8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry).

12. A bubble bath.

13. Giggling.

14. Laughing with others .

15. The beach.

16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.

17. Laughing at yourself.

18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they love you .

19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.

20. Running through sprinklers.

21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.

23. Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS .

24. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

25. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep .

26. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).

27. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

28. Playing with a new puppy.

29. Having someone play with your hair.

30. Sweet dreams.

31. Hot chocolate or vanilla lattes.

32. Road trips with friends.

33. Swinging on swings.

34. Making chocolate chip cookies .

35. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.

36. Holding hands with someone you care about.

37. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.

38. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.

39. Watching the sunrise.

40. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

41. Knowing that somebody misses you.

42. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.

43. Snuggling.

44. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

i seriously have ZERO tolerance for self-righteous people. if you're going to have a strong opinion or thought about something that others do, then YOU CAN'T share that same quality. it's SO fucking annoying having to listen to self-righteous people BITCH and MOAN about things that they in turn do themselves. GET OVER YOURSELF.

tea please!

summer 2009, you were so good to me.

game for fools - jamie lidell

stay with me (by the sea) - al green

do you feel me - anthony hammilton

today i wrapped up my summer, weird. i really can't believe how fast it went by. everyday was absolutely glorious.

the end of this summer was seriously one for the books. karina, molly, and i spent a week visiting alana in salisbury, but spending everyday at the beach. so many fun adventures, and stories, and such great company. every night was outrageous. :) i wish i could rewind and relive that week 20 more times.

heart of the matter.

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

life right now feels like chaos. i need a new playlist.

rep DC

besides the fact that this group sounds slightly ignorant when they talk.. they can dance. 

love.

never gets old.

summer continues..

i have 787 songs on my itunes purchased list. -- i'm an addict. 

karina, kathleen, molly, and i went to the beach on saturday. it was possibly one of the most enjoyable day/trip i've had in a while. kathleen's parent's have a BEAUTIFUL house in rehoboth, so we decided there was no reason not to go. we got stuck in horrible traffic on the way there (a 2 hour trip took us 4), but as soon as we arrived we jumped onto their beach cruisers and rode down to the beach, spent a couple of hours there, and headed to the pool. kathleen's parents invited us to stay for dinner, and they cooked a FEAST. it was seriously some of the best grilling i've tasted in a while. mm. we didn't end up leaving until 11 that night. we were invited to go back next saturday.. and we are definitely taking advantage of that invitation. 

let go - cartel .. i really like their new single, and i'm excited for the rest of the record. i'll always have a small place in my heart for catchy pop- punk. sometimes it's just so on point. :) i've been not-so- patiently waiting for person L to release their new album. i can't find a date anywhere. minus the bear is ALSO releasing a new album soon. SO much good new music. :) :) finally. virgin fest is creeping up, and i'm really excited. 

on the 14th, karina and i are going to salisbury to stay with alana and spend time at the beach with cheryl and her family. i CANT wait for a WEEK at the beach. :) mm. it's been too long overdue. should be a really chill week which is JUST what i've been looking forward to. 

so many good things, such a good summer. 

mm. fun.

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these 17 questions. Pass it on to 17 people and include me!

Pick a band/artist: the starting line

1. Are you a male or female: "saddest girl story"

2. Describe yourself: "classic jazz"


3. How do you feel about yourself: "this ride"


4. Describe your ex boyfriend/girlfriend: "break up day"


5. Describe your current boy/girl situation: "selective"


6. Describe your current location: "bedroom talk"


7. Describe where you want to be: "island"


8. Your best friend: "thanks you're the best"


9. Your favorite color is: "surprise, surprise"


10. You know that: "somebody's gonna miss us"


11. What's the weather like: "left coast envy"


12. If your life was a television show what would it be called: "lasting impressions"


13. What is life to you: "nothing's gonna stop us now"


14. What are you wearing: "make yourself at home"


15.What would you order for your last meal: "birds"


16. What is the best advice you have to give: "need to love"


17. If you could change your name what would it be: "hello houston"

small things, large things, sad things, happy things.

this past week has been so insane.

birthday celebrations kicked off on tuesday night. everyone headed to pamela and mia's, to start the countdown. karina and cheryl surprised me by making a cake complete with a "happy birthday" sing-a-long at midnight. on wednesday (my actual birthday) i wanted to keep it low key so i ran around with my sister all day. we shopped a little, grabbed ice cream, and got manicures. i had to work later in the evening, but afterwords we got together for a family dinner. my mom cooked out, and made my favorite meal. :) it was SO GOOD. on thursday celebrations continued. i invited everyone to georgetown for dinner and drinks at j.pauls. it was so beautiful the entire day, until it was time for us to leave and of course it monsooooned. we headed to the metro and trekked two blocks in the rain to the restaurant. despite some small glitches, everything went pretty smoothly. we got a private room, the food and drinks were amazing! mostly, the company is what made my birthday so wonderful. i'm so happy i got to spend it with all the people i love most. :)

FRIDAY! molly and i headed into baltimore to see person L play at sonar. we forgot to mapquest directions to the club, so molly attempted to google directions via her phone. of course, the directions were completely wrong, and we ended up a little lost. luckily we found our way and made it to sonar JUST in time to see person L , we missed the first song. they were incredible. kenny has so much energy, and such a strong stage presence, you can't help but dance and sing along. what a good night, and great adventure. (THANK YOU MOLLY!!!)

sad things - i'm going to have to postpone my trip to california until september (hopefully). for the past couple of months i've been working at the swimming pool, interpreting for a deaf swimming instructor. this particular job was mon-thurs, every week this summer. jobs like that are so key, because they're a constant job, and a bulk of my paycheck. the classes were supposed to run through the second week of august. kevin (the instructor) informed me he was taking off for the last session... so i'm losing all that money. it just isn't the right time for me to fly out, so hopefully i can find some time to head out this fall. :( i'm pretty bummed, but it will all work out.

it's been a great week.

so much love.

urban dictionary

i'm waiting for my load of laundry to be done, so i can put in another.. 

obviously, i have nothing else better to do then to urban dictionary my name.. puahaha (i saw someone else do it, and came up with a funny definition)

so here we go:

Jacqueline 

According to studies (to put it plainly and so you guys can understand)...

A curvy girl who is extremely hott. 

Doesn't go out with men often because of self-confidence and pride, and the knowing that no guy is good enough for her. Not like most girls who have had 5 boyfriends in a three month period. 

Good fashion sense and a pretty unique face is usually a quality of a girl with this name, most girls of this origin could be models. 

Very Seductive, they usually look mean from first glance but they love to have fun and laugh. 

If you ever come in contact or know a Jacqueline then your lucky, even though no matter how hard you try, you will NEVER get one in your bed. Extremely rare. 

They're a good species to chase, and love the game. They know the mind of men, so be prepared to have A woman know all your secrets, which makes it even harder to pin down. 

They're very independent and although it may look like they dont get attention from guys, it's because they put off an ora that basically sends a signal to guys that she's not about to played and isn't easy, that's usually when guys back off. 

They don't like gossiping preppy girls, although they will probably be assocciated with that group, they will most likely turn the tables. 

Not like most girls, Jacqueline's usually like sports, and guy things, but they also have a very feminine side when they want to. 

The very rare ones are accustomed to fame and famous people. 

They're exquisite and very hard to find and, if you know one start chasing. Once they realize you are, your in for a good time.

I wish I could marry a Jacqueline, I'd be the envy of all guys

not too shabby.

because, this is what makes me smile:

everybody knows that nobody really knows.

july is coming to an end, and summer is starting to wind down. :( this summer feels like it was just a blink.

last night i saw john legend and inda.arie at merriweather. hands down, my favorite show so far this year. john legend is an absolute genius. his voice is magical and beautiful, and i had a big silly smile on my face the entire show. india.arie is a beautiful soul, and inspirational. the whole show just radiated good vibes. the crowd was insane, and so diverse. it was good to see such a wide collection of people enjoying the music. shows like this remind me that music is so powerful. :) he played every one of my favorite songs, and saved 'stay with you' for the encore. SO ON POINT. definitely one of the highlights of this summer. i'm looking forward to person L this friday! so many good things happening this week.

twenty three is right around the corner. i decided for my birthday i wanted to gather a group of friends and head to georgetown for dinner and drinks. :) i want to spend my birthday with all the right people, and have a really relaxing laid back time.

today was beautiful, and i spent the entire day poolside at mindy's. :) tomorrow, it looks like it's going to be poolside round deux. :)

keep enjoying summer.

music

right now. 

stay with you - john legend

pachuca sunrise (acoustic) - minus the bear

fu- gee-la - the fugees

pretty wings - maxwell

ordinary girl - rebelution

four kicks - kings of leon

flake - jack johnson

fallin' for you - colbie caillat

hey stephen - taylor swift

better love - steel train

hey hey what can i do - led zeppelin 

there's hope - india arie 

fly one time - ben harper and the relentless 7 

kick, push - lupe fiasco

waking up in vegas - katy perry

on and on - erykah badu

what you want - the starting line

each day gets better - john legend

july 17th.

SERIOUSLY, i cannot wait.

absolutely.

"i learned that things don't always turn out the way you planned, or the way you think they should. and i've learned that there are things that go wrong and that don't always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. i've learned that some broken things stay broken, and i've learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as you have people who love you." 

life is SO awkward sometimes i can't even stand it. 

"electric feel" - katy perry (cover)

i can't believe it's july already. this summer has literally been FLYING. i wish it would slow down, one blink and it'll be september already. (wow, i'm such a kill joy) 

the 4th was a HUGE success! i'm really proud that we were able to put together a legit bbq, and my dad looked so happy, which of course was most important. we bought him a small individual cake, and put a huge "60" candle on top, i wish everyone could've seen his face. he was so surprised, and i swear the smile didn't leave his face the entire night! 

the past week has been a blur, but i feel like i haven't actually done anything? my birthday is creeping up slowly, and i want to figure out something to do. i'm not a big fan of doing anything excessive, but i'm thinking of either going to the beach, or going out to dinner? 

virgin fest is free this year! i'm not really OVERLY excited for the line up, but a free show is a free show, i'm glad i was able to get tickets. apparently they sold out pretty quickly. 

the second week of august, i'm heading out to california! :) rachel found an amazing deal on a round trip ticket, so i have no reason not to go. i think i'm going to split the ticket with my parents as my birthday present. :D :D i'm going to try and not to over spend on anything until then.. minus john legend and person L tickets.   so many good shows to look forward to this month. 

tomorrow is supposed to be beautiful, so i'm planning on laying on my deck the entire day. this is the life.

happy 4th of july!

happy 4th of july! 

my daddy turned 60 today! :) the girls and i all got together and put together a FEAST! we cooked out, and my dad was so excited. he's the sweetest, and i'm so lucky. :) xoxo. 

heading out to see fireworks. :) 

july 24th. YES!

luckiest girl. hands down.

all the good, and all the bad.

for me it always seems like when i have one aspect of my life in order, all the others completely start to crumble. i can't seem to figure out how to keep them all in check, and have them all work simultaneously. i make so many mistakes, but i'm a good person, amazing friend, and hard worker. so someday maybe all the aspects of my life will come together. for right now, i guess i'm just going to have to roll with the punches. 

i didn't end up going to the beach with molly. if i would've gone, i would've missed a whole day of work on monday. including the end of interpreting ice skating lessons, and the beginning of the swimming lessons. the woman who i interpret ice skating lessons for is my absolute favorite client, and i know i would've been bummed to not say goodbye. she's also going to be taking lessons again in the fall, and maybe a painting class over the summer. i've built a great working relationship with her, and i want her to continue to use me in the future, bringing me more business. the weather wasn't supposed to be wonderful this past weekend, so all in all the con's outweighed the pro's. i have a car payment that is coming up as well... i'm really trying hard to be more responsible, as much as i would've loved to forget all my responsibilities and make moves to the beach, i couldn't. but i know there will be plenty more beach trips in the future, so i'm not too bummed. 

work has been going really really well. i've been focusing a lot on trying to improve myself (in work), by taking on more difficult assignments. i realized that i can't improve my skills if i keep taking on the same type of workload. so this past week has been filled with new and more challenging assignments. at one of my job sites, the director of the program approached me yesterday and told me that i was doing an  excellent job. she also told me that my work demeanor has brightened the program, and i make a huge difference. i've never been so proud of myself before that moment. the director went out of her way to come and tell me that, which means i've been doing something right. :) i told my parents and they're ecstatic. i never really realized the impact i have on people. i never really realized that a certain type of interpreter can make all the difference in any situation. i'm really glad that i've been able to touch so many people, and they've given me such positive feedback. i really do love my job, and i love that this is just a small glimpse into my future. i have the possibility to make major impact in a community that is so important to me. :) i can't wait. 

this weekend is pretty exciting. george is finally coming home for summer vacation on sunday! thank goodness! i've missed him so much, and with everything going on right now, he's going to be a big bright patch. :) fathers day is also sunday, and i still haven't gotten a gift for my dad. ugh. i have no idea what to possibly get him. tomorrow i have the entire day off.. so i'm going to go to the mall and wander around until i see something. 

truth.

"when you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. you begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. you see only the essence of the person, not the shell. that's why you can't fall in love with beauty. you can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. you can love it with your eyes and your body but not your heart. and that's why when you really connect with a person's inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant." - lisa unger

photo.

people are people.

i think sometimes friendships are hard. people change, and sometimes those changes are too large for a friendship to sustain. i know this story too well, but every time it happens i learn a little bit more. it's sad because i miss my friend, but it's better because that friend i miss hasn't been there for a while. it's unfair to try and make someone be someone they don't have the capacity to be. i just wish in the end things weren't as bad. i wish there wasn't so much mutual hate. but i guess over time hate fades, and you just become neutral.

"yes"

i'm always complaining about wanting to meet new people, and do more things, but i never REALLY do anything to change my routine. i was talking with someone the other day, and he told me that he was going to say "yes" to everything he was invited to this summer. i completely dig this idea. obviously it has to be within reason, but i'm going to try really hard to say "yes".

it looks like i'm headed back to the beach this weekend. molly invited me down to rehoboth with a bunch of her friends. it should be a really great time, and i really like everyone that is going. :D i can't turn down a free place to stay at the beach.

i'm really working hard to make this summer really great. so far, so good.

beach.

went to ocean city yesterday, for the day. -- day trips are wonderful, but i never want to leave.

up.

i really want to see this movie

here, there, everywhere.

i'm expected to be up by 7am tomorrow. i should be sleeping, but my mind wont rest long enough to allow it.

cape cod was unreal. i just got home, and i'm already ready to go back. actually, i never really wanted to come home. it's so beautiful. everywhere. the drive was a bitch though. the normal 8 hour drive ended up taking us at least 10 hours (both times), because of traffic in nyc and connecticut. we left pretty late on thursday night, and didn't end up getting to nyc until around 3am. it was mia's brother anthony's birthday, so we celebrated with a huge blunt. anthony's apartment was so cute, but really small. he lives on the upper west side near columbia university. the area was really nice, it had a lot of small shops and such. i wish we got to explore nyc a little bit more, but it was raining pretty hard thursday, and friday. we got up pretty early on friday morning to get to the cape at a reasonable hour. once we arrived, and got settled in we feasted. mia's family really took care of us this entire weekend. i don't think i've ever eaten as much, ever. saturday we got up early to go do some shopping, and head to the beach for a little. after we were finished in town, we headed to mia's dad's place for a bbq. the food was AMAZING. i tried muscles and cod fish for the first time. not at all as bad as i thought they would taste. we bought a few packs of blue moons, drank, and danced to old records in the basement, until we decided to explore the town. sunday we got up early ONCE AGAIN, and headed out on the boat. we went to crab island, and hung out there for a while, until we finally had to drive back home. :( we pretty much got a little taste of everything while we were up there. mia invited us back for the fourth of july. :D :D

... my friend rachel also invited me to the hamptons with her family for the fourth. decisions decisions. i'm making it my mission to not sit still for a single second this summer. i plan on making moves to as many different destinations as possible. i believe the first week of august i'm going to be visiting rachel in santa barbara/ george in LA. she called me today to discuss details, and asked if i'd be interested in going to vegas for a two days during my week stay in california. i'd never really thought about going to vegas before. it's not really my scene (gambling, and drinking), but i figure why the fuck not... i'll just play the slots. 

tomorrow i'm going to the beach with a few friends. the weather isn't supposed to be completely fantastic, but i'm excited anyway. like i said before, i'm just excited to make moves and do as many things as i possibly can. 

i need to attempt to fall asleep otherwise there is no hope for me getting up at 7. 

current events.

this weekend was the greatest, and mollys 21st was delightful. molly's dad definitely kicked my ass in beer pong, and i unintentionally got wasted at 5 in the afternoon.

karina and i had a taco fiesta with some friends in columbia, and it was fabulous. a lot of laughing, which is always welcome. we leave for cape cod in 3 days! we are all so excited. i'm really looking forward to spending the night in new york city. apparently her brother moved out of the bronx, and into manhattan. we're going to leave thursday night, as soon as i get off work. so i'm happy that we are going to stay in manhattan instead, cos it's in the middle of everything. i'm really really looking forward to cape cod, relaxing, and going out on the boat.

heres to living the dream. :) thank goodness for good friends.

listening to john legend on repeat.

good news, good mood.

"storms" by person L always puts me in a good mood.

grades have been posted since last week, but i've been pretty hesitant to check them. art history has literally kicked my ass all semester. i worked really hard, but i needed to do really well on the final to do well in the class. finally curiosity got the best of me and i checked my grades today. i did SO well. i'm really really happy/excited/relieved. :) what good news.

i've been enjoying summer a little too much, and i haven't been getting my shit done. i really need to get all my transfer stuff in order, and finish it. i don't know what i'm waiting for. it will get done before cape cod.

tomorrow is molly's 21st, and she's having a bbq. it's supposed to be 80 and beautiful tomorrow.. so i can't think of anything better. i'm going to bring my sister along, and it should be a really good time. blue moons, definitely.

karina and i have been obsessed with michelob ultra: with lime and cacuts. ITS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING.

every monday for the past 4 months i've been interpreting for this woman who takes ice skating lessons. last session, she asked me to interpret for her daughters graduation. it was such an amazing feeling, to know that someone is impressed with your skills enough to request you personally as their interpreter. my job is amazing. i love that i have the opportunity to meet new people, and always be in a new situation. i'm so glad that i've found something to major in, and a job i know is going to be rewarding in the future. _\m/

i need to keep reminding myself that even though there are bad days, there are definite good days that make the bad ones worth it. i'm glad i have good people to keep me positive.

road trip one, destination: cape cod, ma.

mmm. blue moons with orange, once a day, everyday this summer. :)

FIRST road trip of the summer: cape cod. i'm pretty excited, and it all came together pretty quickly. i'm really enjoying this whole being spontaneous thing. a few friends, my sister and i are all driving up next weekend. our good friend mia lives in the cape, and has to drive up for her sisters graduation, so she invited us to tag along for the vacation. i think we are going to be staying at her grandparents who live right on the beach. they also own a boat, so i can't wait. i think it's going to be a nice change of enviornment. we are planning on leaving thursday night for new york city, to pick up her brother who lives in the bronx. we are going to spend the night, relax, and then drive the 4 hours to the cape. i literally plan on spending every possible sunny moment laying on the beach/pool/boat.. whatever.

mmm. music.

I cannot stop listening to "i want you" by kings of leon.

tomorrow Person L is playing at the ottobar. :D

hello, summer.

it has been such a long semester, finals are over... hello, summer. i feel like i've been waiting for it to be summer since last september. i think i need a good two weeks to adjust to the feeling of not having a single responsibility (other than work).

a few friends, my sister, and i decided to head down to the beach this weekend, after having such horrible weeks individually. we decided to be spontaneous, and head down to ocean city on friday night. orginally the plan was to go down friday night, and spend the night in the car (i know stupid) and beat the memorial day rush to the actual beach on saturday, so we would get a prime spot. we got to the beach around 12am, and realized that it would just be better to get a hotel room, and stay two nights instead. once we figured out where we were staying, we dropped off our stuff, picked up a blanket and headed to the beach. the whole entire weekend has been a blur of fatty foods, blunts, beers (i found BLUE MOON in a 22 oz. GENIUS.), and serious laughs (thanks to mindy). i got good color, and i spent way too much money.. but it was worth it to get out of town and leave the people and everything behind.

i'm really looking forward to this summer, and i have a lot to look forward to. trips to california, florida, the hamptons, ocean city, and cape cod are all in the works. i plan on taking complete advantage of my friends who live in amazing places... all of them happen to be beachside, which is a boost. :) i'm also looking forward to working A LOT and gaining experience, and making good money.

so after this shitty semester, i'm looking forward to surrounding myself with more positive people, and doing things that make ME happy. :)

right now, i'm looking forward to the CRAB FEAST for dinner tonight.

summer is SO good.