luckiest girl. hands down.

all the good, and all the bad.

for me it always seems like when i have one aspect of my life in order, all the others completely start to crumble. i can't seem to figure out how to keep them all in check, and have them all work simultaneously. i make so many mistakes, but i'm a good person, amazing friend, and hard worker. so someday maybe all the aspects of my life will come together. for right now, i guess i'm just going to have to roll with the punches. 

i didn't end up going to the beach with molly. if i would've gone, i would've missed a whole day of work on monday. including the end of interpreting ice skating lessons, and the beginning of the swimming lessons. the woman who i interpret ice skating lessons for is my absolute favorite client, and i know i would've been bummed to not say goodbye. she's also going to be taking lessons again in the fall, and maybe a painting class over the summer. i've built a great working relationship with her, and i want her to continue to use me in the future, bringing me more business. the weather wasn't supposed to be wonderful this past weekend, so all in all the con's outweighed the pro's. i have a car payment that is coming up as well... i'm really trying hard to be more responsible, as much as i would've loved to forget all my responsibilities and make moves to the beach, i couldn't. but i know there will be plenty more beach trips in the future, so i'm not too bummed. 

work has been going really really well. i've been focusing a lot on trying to improve myself (in work), by taking on more difficult assignments. i realized that i can't improve my skills if i keep taking on the same type of workload. so this past week has been filled with new and more challenging assignments. at one of my job sites, the director of the program approached me yesterday and told me that i was doing an  excellent job. she also told me that my work demeanor has brightened the program, and i make a huge difference. i've never been so proud of myself before that moment. the director went out of her way to come and tell me that, which means i've been doing something right. :) i told my parents and they're ecstatic. i never really realized the impact i have on people. i never really realized that a certain type of interpreter can make all the difference in any situation. i'm really glad that i've been able to touch so many people, and they've given me such positive feedback. i really do love my job, and i love that this is just a small glimpse into my future. i have the possibility to make major impact in a community that is so important to me. :) i can't wait. 

this weekend is pretty exciting. george is finally coming home for summer vacation on sunday! thank goodness! i've missed him so much, and with everything going on right now, he's going to be a big bright patch. :) fathers day is also sunday, and i still haven't gotten a gift for my dad. ugh. i have no idea what to possibly get him. tomorrow i have the entire day off.. so i'm going to go to the mall and wander around until i see something. 

truth.

"when you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. you begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. you see only the essence of the person, not the shell. that's why you can't fall in love with beauty. you can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. you can love it with your eyes and your body but not your heart. and that's why when you really connect with a person's inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant." - lisa unger

photo.

people are people.

i think sometimes friendships are hard. people change, and sometimes those changes are too large for a friendship to sustain. i know this story too well, but every time it happens i learn a little bit more. it's sad because i miss my friend, but it's better because that friend i miss hasn't been there for a while. it's unfair to try and make someone be someone they don't have the capacity to be. i just wish in the end things weren't as bad. i wish there wasn't so much mutual hate. but i guess over time hate fades, and you just become neutral.

"yes"

i'm always complaining about wanting to meet new people, and do more things, but i never REALLY do anything to change my routine. i was talking with someone the other day, and he told me that he was going to say "yes" to everything he was invited to this summer. i completely dig this idea. obviously it has to be within reason, but i'm going to try really hard to say "yes".

it looks like i'm headed back to the beach this weekend. molly invited me down to rehoboth with a bunch of her friends. it should be a really great time, and i really like everyone that is going. :D i can't turn down a free place to stay at the beach.

i'm really working hard to make this summer really great. so far, so good.

beach.

went to ocean city yesterday, for the day. -- day trips are wonderful, but i never want to leave.

up.

i really want to see this movie

here, there, everywhere.

i'm expected to be up by 7am tomorrow. i should be sleeping, but my mind wont rest long enough to allow it.

cape cod was unreal. i just got home, and i'm already ready to go back. actually, i never really wanted to come home. it's so beautiful. everywhere. the drive was a bitch though. the normal 8 hour drive ended up taking us at least 10 hours (both times), because of traffic in nyc and connecticut. we left pretty late on thursday night, and didn't end up getting to nyc until around 3am. it was mia's brother anthony's birthday, so we celebrated with a huge blunt. anthony's apartment was so cute, but really small. he lives on the upper west side near columbia university. the area was really nice, it had a lot of small shops and such. i wish we got to explore nyc a little bit more, but it was raining pretty hard thursday, and friday. we got up pretty early on friday morning to get to the cape at a reasonable hour. once we arrived, and got settled in we feasted. mia's family really took care of us this entire weekend. i don't think i've ever eaten as much, ever. saturday we got up early to go do some shopping, and head to the beach for a little. after we were finished in town, we headed to mia's dad's place for a bbq. the food was AMAZING. i tried muscles and cod fish for the first time. not at all as bad as i thought they would taste. we bought a few packs of blue moons, drank, and danced to old records in the basement, until we decided to explore the town. sunday we got up early ONCE AGAIN, and headed out on the boat. we went to crab island, and hung out there for a while, until we finally had to drive back home. :( we pretty much got a little taste of everything while we were up there. mia invited us back for the fourth of july. :D :D

... my friend rachel also invited me to the hamptons with her family for the fourth. decisions decisions. i'm making it my mission to not sit still for a single second this summer. i plan on making moves to as many different destinations as possible. i believe the first week of august i'm going to be visiting rachel in santa barbara/ george in LA. she called me today to discuss details, and asked if i'd be interested in going to vegas for a two days during my week stay in california. i'd never really thought about going to vegas before. it's not really my scene (gambling, and drinking), but i figure why the fuck not... i'll just play the slots. 

tomorrow i'm going to the beach with a few friends. the weather isn't supposed to be completely fantastic, but i'm excited anyway. like i said before, i'm just excited to make moves and do as many things as i possibly can. 

i need to attempt to fall asleep otherwise there is no hope for me getting up at 7. 

current events.

this weekend was the greatest, and mollys 21st was delightful. molly's dad definitely kicked my ass in beer pong, and i unintentionally got wasted at 5 in the afternoon.

karina and i had a taco fiesta with some friends in columbia, and it was fabulous. a lot of laughing, which is always welcome. we leave for cape cod in 3 days! we are all so excited. i'm really looking forward to spending the night in new york city. apparently her brother moved out of the bronx, and into manhattan. we're going to leave thursday night, as soon as i get off work. so i'm happy that we are going to stay in manhattan instead, cos it's in the middle of everything. i'm really really looking forward to cape cod, relaxing, and going out on the boat.

heres to living the dream. :) thank goodness for good friends.

listening to john legend on repeat.